Day 6 – The Space to Write (everyday inspiration)
In my head I dream of having a writing desk or a favourite coffee shop where I can tap away and be inspired to write many great things. The reality though is….well….shall we say slightly different. Most of the time I sat on my comfy sofa perched at one end, sometimes cross legged and sometimes stretched out balancing my tablet on my legs. Always though at the same end facing the big window looking towards the bird feeder. And that is exactly where I am now.
photo from pixabay…not my sofa…I wish that was my floor…it is gorgeous!
It is by no means perfect, I am often slightly uncomfortable and frequently disrupted by Phillip telling me bits and pieces from what he is reading or by birds coming and going to the feeder. It is though my spot. It is where I write my thoughts, where I tell you of my adventures, where I talk of my life with anxiety.
That is not to say that I am fixed to this spot and could not write without it. I have written perched on a tree stump in a forest, tapped away in a Starbucks (*other coffee shops are available*) or sat in my little camper. To get attached to a spot is no longer in my nature. The plan is to write wherever and whenever. For now though this is my morning spot, the place I write before the day’s adventures begin and life takes me elsewhere.
For a future task coming up, I need some ideas from my readers on what you would like me to write about…pop your idea in the contact form below if you have something you would like me to write about. Thank you!
Day 4 – A Story in a Single Image
Today I needed to pick a photo out of four and use it as a starting point, a springboard into a story, poem or personal thoughts. All four photos had things I could say about them yet this one spoke to me in a way the others did not.
There is such care-free abandon in that jump, such freedom, such joy. It makes me happy that there is such joy in the world and yet at the same time it makes me feel so sad and so lonely. Moments like that seem so rare in my life, my life which feels so controlled and worried about. I want that type of feeling, I want to gleefully leap into pools, dance down the street and laugh with my friends. I want to feel such freedom rather than the feeling of constraint and tension that seem to accompany my day to day life.
Wanting and doing though are two very different things. The very things that mean my life feels it is missing these moments are the very things that put barriers up to stop me moving towards such a place of, if you’ll excuse the language, not giving a fuck and grasping life with both hands. Every movement towards a life that will bring me joy seems to be so hard fought, involves such effort. And I am tired, tired of this constant battle with myself. The me that is so scared, so worried, so doubting vs. the me that sees such joy, such fun, such pleasure in the world and wants it in my world. There needs to be some agreement, some compromise…because that person in the photograph, that is me, I can feel it deep inside.
Day Three – One-Word Inspiration: Chosen prompt ‘home’
Until 3 years ago, my view of what made somewhere my ‘home’ was very different. My home was one place, the flat we owned, the flat filled with all our things and stuff we had accumulated over the years. It was constant and it was fixed. Then the world changed for me and with it, so did my sense of what makes a home.
An anxiety related ever-shrinking world and a growing sense of ‘is this all there is to our lives’ led to the decision that we needed to make a fairly brutal change to our lives and really push ourselves outside of our comfort zone. We needed to leave home. So we sold our flat and went travelling. This changed us in many ways and it fundamentally changed our outlook on what makes somewhere our home. We lived in our small camper for several months touring around our home country. Views changed, accents changed, weather changed ~ our camper changed into our home.
When that time was over, another camper became our home all the way over in New Zealand. It was rented and for only 5 weeks yet within days it was our home, our sanctuary, our life.
All change again to Tokyo where we lived in a small room for 6 months with only a few bits and pieces to call ours. And yes it became home almost immediately (and still is the place we have most felt at home).
Returning to the UK, we moved to a different part of the country and whilst struggling with the fact that our life had become stationary once more, our place felt like home. Travelling changed how we viewed the word ‘home’. Home is a feeling not a place, you don’t need to own it or fill it full of your things. Home is everywhere and it is anywhere.