Go me! A second post in 1 week – time to give myself a jolly good pat on the back. I find it easy to say to myself ‘yeah but lets see if you carry it on’ or ‘why celebrate it, other people post several times a week all the time’…I want to change this though, stop listening to that negative part of me that says I am not good enough. So yay for the little things!
My head is in quite a jumble at the moment. There is much I am trying to make sense of and much I want to sort…all with the assistance of my ‘friends’ anxiety and depression. They complicate life though I am determined that they will not make it impossible. Last year was such a complex and difficult year for so many reasons – getting over the change from our wandering lifestyle and home in Tokyo to life back in the UK where we did not and still do not want to be, as well as dealing with the death of my brother the previous year. We have come out of that year poorer and slightly battered, knowing ourselves better and tentatively taking steps to find our path onward.
I spoke last about giving my blog new life and focus. This feels very reflective of what I want to achieve for myself as a whole. I need change, to sort myself out. I know I want to improve my physical and mental wellbeing, explore the world surrounding me both near and far. We know we want to return to Tokyo or travel to new places, ideally later this year. Join me on my efforts to have adventures, working freelance as well as my button business, rediscovering the joys of writing and that all important self-care that will get me through. I got this!