Day Eight: Reinvent the Letter Format
Today’s task is to write a letter, any type of letter, to anyone or anything, about any subject. My first instinct was that I didn’t want to do it. Once I decided to go for it, my next instinct was to do one of those letters to myself aged whatever or to my anxiety. Something that was comfortable, a subject that I am used to writing about. I didn’t want to go down that often walked path though, not today. I wanted to stretch myself and write something a little more different, more positive. So I am writing a letter to a city, to my home for 6 months, to Tokyo.
It is two whole years since we said goodbye yet I can still feel you, can still smell you. I know what it was to walk your streets, spend time in your shrines and temples, watch people live their lives. Yes it is two whole years and I have not forgotten you.
At first living in your sprawling, busy, noisy and so very different city was hard. It was not what I expected from our brief acquaintances before. I hadn’t realised how strange you could be, how alone you could make me feel. Sometimes you were so hard to understand, so alien. I wanted to run, find something familiar, go ‘home’ to where I could understand and be understood. It broke my heart because I was so sure that you and me would be such good friends.
And I was right. At some point I stopped fighting and listened to what you had to say. The loneliness I felt in your presence turned to an appreciation of solitude, of pleasure in my own company whilst spending time walking your streets. I opened up to your ways, found pleasure in your odd and quirky nature and loved the traditional ways that underpinned everything you do. I always felt safe with you wherever I was and whatever I was doing. My home was small yet outside my door was never ending exploration and adventure.
I miss those days, miss that life and I miss you Tokyo. Leaving you behind was one of the hardest things I have ever done and the feeling of being there with you has never left or eased. You still have my heart. I will see you again Tokyo.
till then…all my love